It seems we are either laughing, crying, angry or calm with moments of sleep in between.
Ever talk to your guardian angel or any spirit you think was assigned to watch you and apologize for your boring life while they follow you around? I did that once. I asked 'How can you stand it?'.
Ever bury your emotions for years (without realizing it) because there is work to do at home and outside and you are on auto-run. Childcare etc... excitement and fun are non essentials for a healthy spirit and I don't do it anyway, placing happiness in a spouse is a mistake, only God can grant you joy if you are obedient to Him. Disappointment is a huge part of life.
Dying to self. This means even when you know someone is wrong for the umpteenth time you just don't bother to address it anymore, you tuck it away inside and even though we are told holding in emotions is bad, it makes your spirit stronger as you practice patience....or it festers horrible resentment, or both, actually. Apathy builds. Divorce.
Intellectuals will tell you the problem of evil has its answers already, have you not read the book? A Christian can have this 'problem' resurface time and again, when they are praying for themselves or family members comfy at home, they see on their tv's children being sold as slaves and a little girl telling her story with tears in her eyes, than you can't finish breakfast and you stop praying. What the hell am I doing? Look at this child and look at me, who can pray for themselves after this? All I pray for these days is for God to protect my children, such is the scariness of this world, there is no room for other life enhancing prayers other than this world is horrid please spare the ones we care for and anything else is a bonus.
so our emotions can block the minds old response to this problem of evil on a daily basis, and it stops you from praying or feeling growth spiritually.
The good fortune is there is not much emotion anymore, just tiredness of being in the same place, wondering if this is a circle or if there is a new path spiritually.
Ever talk to your guardian angel or any spirit you think was assigned to watch you and apologize for your boring life while they follow you around? I did that once. I asked 'How can you stand it?'.
Ever bury your emotions for years (without realizing it) because there is work to do at home and outside and you are on auto-run. Childcare etc... excitement and fun are non essentials for a healthy spirit and I don't do it anyway, placing happiness in a spouse is a mistake, only God can grant you joy if you are obedient to Him. Disappointment is a huge part of life.
Dying to self. This means even when you know someone is wrong for the umpteenth time you just don't bother to address it anymore, you tuck it away inside and even though we are told holding in emotions is bad, it makes your spirit stronger as you practice patience....or it festers horrible resentment, or both, actually. Apathy builds. Divorce.
Intellectuals will tell you the problem of evil has its answers already, have you not read the book? A Christian can have this 'problem' resurface time and again, when they are praying for themselves or family members comfy at home, they see on their tv's children being sold as slaves and a little girl telling her story with tears in her eyes, than you can't finish breakfast and you stop praying. What the hell am I doing? Look at this child and look at me, who can pray for themselves after this? All I pray for these days is for God to protect my children, such is the scariness of this world, there is no room for other life enhancing prayers other than this world is horrid please spare the ones we care for and anything else is a bonus.
so our emotions can block the minds old response to this problem of evil on a daily basis, and it stops you from praying or feeling growth spiritually.
The good fortune is there is not much emotion anymore, just tiredness of being in the same place, wondering if this is a circle or if there is a new path spiritually.
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