I'm reluctantly concluding that it is but I'm not sure what to do about it. I am not (excessively) depressed but I'm not seeing a good outcome here. I'm thinking that I'm not gonna get what I'm praying for - not that God cannot grant it, He can, but that He is gonna say no. Now, it's okay for Him to say no - He's God and I'm not. I'm okay with that and with not understanding the purpose here - been thinking of Job of late (before this happened), "Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him." Currently my favorite verse.
But is believing that God is likely to say no a lack of trust/faith? It's not hopelessness - I'm not concluding that the universe is ending or that I'm gonna end up homeless (even though...) - I just feel resigned to losing. I haven't won any of my other battles - why should this one be different? That doesn't worry me but the thought that I'm not trusting God does.
So, assuming that made sense to anyone, anyone have any ideas?
But is believing that God is likely to say no a lack of trust/faith? It's not hopelessness - I'm not concluding that the universe is ending or that I'm gonna end up homeless (even though...) - I just feel resigned to losing. I haven't won any of my other battles - why should this one be different? That doesn't worry me but the thought that I'm not trusting God does.
So, assuming that made sense to anyone, anyone have any ideas?
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